I feel no different, it's not a weight-off-your-shoulders type of thing, You're just a bit more, easygoing. I don't really have to worry about how depressing, angsty and incomplete my life is, because I'm sort of over it.
Wednesday, 20 October 2010
my idea of a boyfriend is someone who is willing to suffer me blaring music listening to amazing bands then suddenly switching to some sort of gravely american country singer, who I can go without even speaking to for two days and doesn't have some kind of freak out if I do, who won't mind when I insist on taking photos of everything, who likes to eat straightforward uncomplicated food, he doesn't mind every time I make fun of him, who won't mind when I say no to tv and yes to partay-aaay,who doesn't mind that I'm a lazy shit, who'd rather take me on holiday up north than freaking ibiza, ew. And most importantly, who doesn't mind when I say fuck off to their marriage proposal.
Monday, 18 October 2010
Saturday, 16 October 2010
what matters the most to me in the present.
-get dressed how I want
-put makeup on how I want
-read a book that doesn't feel like a book
-Be listening to music most of the day
-laugh until I cry with my best friends
-being able to feel like I'm myself
I don't believe in responsibility, my only form of responsibility is to myself, don't look at me like that I'm a selfish being, and so are you. So what's the problem?
Friday, 15 October 2010
Thursday, 14 October 2010
some girls need to wake up and get over themselves.
Boys are not romantic.
Men can be when they feel like it.
Males are there to use at your will, right now, being my sixteen year old self, I could do with a twenty four year old, quirky, beautiful (no exceptions) guy I can have a piece of whenever I feel like it. Two days without a phonecall? See if I care.
I'll admit that staying at school right until your eighteen is the right thing for some people, but today's society puts everyone into the box, and that's not my box. Mine's more like a sort of messy, ripped, drawn on box. In fact I don't think it can really be called a box at all, I'm a little piece of everything. I just feel like it's time to go, live on my own, laze about. Have the freedom to live comfortable, work just enough. And do whatever the hell I want.
Wednesday, 13 October 2010
it's one of those songs, where I don't play a story along with it in my head. It's pure soundtrack. All I have to do is listen, and forget about everything, just think of the sound, the feeling it creates. Just that one song, just those three short minutes.
Heroes, David Bowie.
don't laugh, but I think I'm 'orally fixated'. Like when children are teething except, in adulthood haha. I always need to be eating someone or chewing, I've tried supplementing with a drink. I also bite the skin around my nails alot (ew I know) but I can't help it. It's like there always has to be something happening. I need to be eating or drinking or anything. Right now it's not much of a problem but I'm going to try and stay away from cigarettes, I think if I discovered them I might end up using that as a substitute.
anyway, had to talk about it. x
Tuesday, 12 October 2010
Monday, 11 October 2010
I'd like to say though, I don't condone the wearing of fur or purchasing fur in the modern day world, because it is uneccessary. The coat I bought is vintage, i.e. I DID NOT BUY IT FIRST. None of the money I have spent goes to the company that originally made it. I don't even know if it's real to be honest.
-I shun any cosmetics that do animal testing.
-I try not to buy real leather, I have accidentally in the past but I'm not just going to through it out.yeah.
-Fur is the next step for me, so I will not buy fur!
today I bought a vintage furry coat from a shop in Glasgow, it was much like any other average vintage shop so I won't go into details about it. The one I got is brown (you'll see it). To be honest I don't know if its real fur or not, but the fact that someone else bought it before me means even it was, it's not me that's endorsing the wearing of fur. I'm not going to let the possible little animal die in vain am I?
I don't think it's that old to be honest with you, but it'll be my oldest possession, along with my mother's spotty bikini from the 90's. It's also my first ever vintage purchase which I'm quite proud of hehe.
There were too ugly faced males standing outside disney-ified Hollister today. Part of my is seething with envy, and the other is glad to be the girl that will be offered a job in hollister in six years time when I'm much sexier, which will be turned down promptly.
Sunday, 10 October 2010
one of the most beautiful places in the world don't you think?
A few things.
1. Black is the most fashionable colour, take a look at Parisians.
2. I need to compile a list of my favourite films..
-Coco before Chanel
-500 Days of summer
-Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone
-Lord of the Rings Trilogy.
-Oh brother where art thou
I've probably forgot a gazillion trillion important other ones.
I'm doing a corsetry class, no biggy. Anyhoo I really want to do a sort of marie antoinette style one, 17th/18th century? There's a risk I'll end up with the boobs on a plate look though? Oh well, I'll decide at some point.
I'd like it if people still dressed like this, I get the whole liberating women from corsets and impractical dresses and crinolines, to be honest I'd prefer it, leave more to the imagination.
Anyway I just liked this photo. See ya.
I like grey areas today, so I'm going to be all vague and muddled up. Anyway I don't really have much to say to be honest, I'm sort of plodding (good word) along awkwardly right now, I'll get school overwith then I'll feel less pointless. Even saying school makes me feel childish, ugh.
I really want a pair of Dr.Martens, but then I might be one of those "I'm not going to conform to those preppy idiots, oh look some alternative idiots! Better go join in with that crowd instead then I'll be cool and orgininal!..Just like everyone else right?" Thanks Joss for that accurate description.
I need an official brand name that's me, the name I'll write, design, sing and act under. I think Susie would be nice.
That was a typo